Monthly Archives: January 2014

Chinese New Year Eve

Simple happiness:

Sitting on my chair drinking Apple with Aloe Vera slowly after a hot long bath…… something I haven’t gotten to do for the entire month! All month I have been scrambling to my table to my insurmountable amount of homework/tutorials/nonsense I have to do. I have definitely anticipated this Chinese New Year break very very much :’)

January has been a pretty arduous month, but obviously worse months are coming… so suck it up it’s one last year before (hopefully) more years of torture???

So far I’ve already had 3 dinners (it’s showing on the scale by the way not sure if the clothes I bought in December can still be worn):

Rangers BBQ

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Snippets of photos taken that day- it was a really fat day with endless eating because I went for a swim before dinner and thus I was really really hungry by the time the food was cooked… Hehehehe making my money worth yes.

Well, now that I own a Polaroid camera, I have a preference to take polaroids rather than digital images teehee. Not sure if it’s a good thing because digital images can definitely last longer (you can even make copies of it/turn it into a polaroid), but then again simply looking at polaroid films make me inexplicably happy. I feel like I’m making imprints in my life whenever I keep a film in the album hahaha.

Old is the new cool 🙂

Steamboat/BBQ with Delta ’12 Girls

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These are the people I’d always try to keep in contact with even when I’m old and haggly… okay not so exaggerated HAHA all of us would probably have our own lives (that are too damn different) by then. When we were in Year 2/3 or something planning FSD at Jieling’s house we made a list for loads of nonsense… like rankings of “Who will get married first” “Who will get attached first” (first position was already snapped up by then HAHAHA) “Who will commit an affair”

We were rather retarded/childish but thinking of these memories definitely makes me smile: it’s really the stupid things you do that matter in the future. I remember ALL the stupid good and bad things that I did hehehe but I don’t recall any ordinary day when I did something right… yeah I really don’t LOL. 3 years being subjected to what used to be “ordinary NCC life” definitely made us a lot physically and mentally stronger. We marched in the scorching sun together, we had bleeding knees, we had palms red and swollen from the burning track, tears and perspiration in a package all dripping into the track as we trembled endlessly in push up positions and well, they are definitely bittersweet memories HAHA. I’ll always remember them, in a good way of course 🙂

There was this one day when half the platoon was down for something (Shooting? FSD? I don’t remember) and half the platoon was down for CCA. The ones at CCA got knocked during act quite a bit… When the other group came back to CCA, they were so guilty that they paid back the push ups on the track after dismissal, and somehow we just ended up doing the push ups all together, shouting at the top of our lungs even though there wasn’t a need to (we were already dismissed!). I don’t even remember which group I was in (the one who escaped the punishment/the one who got punished) but that day made me really certain that joining NCC had probably been the best decision when I was in Year 1 hehe.

I’ll always resent however, the fact that a hierarchy had to be there, which drew all of us apart. Afterall, who wouldn’t want to get something good out of NCC after three (or four) long years? We started doubting one another. We started to act in our capacity and did what was expected of our positions. It’s like the friendship meter in the SIMs, it depletes with less interaction. After that conversation with you, I realised how much things have changed for all of us. We were really close, in fact close enough to hang around for a few hours just doing nothing but chatting about our lives. But things are different as they have been in the past. It sucks to drift away from friends just because of dumb rumours you heard… but there won’t be smoke without a fire right…?

Sometimes I think I’m some dumb hellshit. Sigh 😦

Okay too much rambling as usual, the most important event definitely:

Family Reunion Dinner!!!

My family is so non-mainstream cause of our (sister brother me) incessant whining about “Every year eat steamboat damn sian ley” “One steamboat is equivalent to eating 10 bowls of rice” (no idea who came up with that)

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This is our contribution to the reunion dinner: Mom’s three little maids! Filial children we are, lugging her grocery shopping home at 11pm HAHAHAHA. The amount of food we buy every single time makes me think that we’re stocking up for a war.

So we had a normal family meal hehehe I wanted to position all the dishes nicely and take an Instagram-worthy photo and caption it like “WELCOMING THE HORSE YEAR IN STYLE” but my siblings were like “CAN YOU FASTER ANOT” “Wah the smell damn nice” and their fingers kept getting into my photos by pinching the abalone so….. I couldn’t manage a nice photo in time 😦 The best photo I took makes it look like some vegetarian dinner (couldn’t even capture the shark fin soup- sorry sharks, abalone, the moss-looking dish with oysters supposedly sounding like 好事发财…)

Ah I’m hungry again cause my bowels went on a riot right after the dinner HAHAHA. Okay time to get to sleep it’s already 2am and I have already done my part as a filial daughter to 守夜! AND BECAUSE IT’S A LONG DAY TOMORROW (midnight movie yayyyyyy)

Have a Happy Chinese New Year everybody!!! Enjoy the 5-day break before it’s back to reality HEHEHE.

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Genius me

School hasn’t been particularly interesting these days, but I still seek comfort in the fact that I can still take 3 hour naps when I get home hehe. I need so much sleep for a 18-year-old girl LOL. I remember I hated sleeping as a kid and my (first) maid would throw my pillows and bolsters out to get me to sleep HA HA HA WHAT and the latest latest latest I ever slept was 10.30pm before I entered Secondary 1. Back then there was no Twitter but there was Facebook. And the only use of Facebook was to play Pet Society / Restaurant City… I have a super super super nice restaurant in the latter ok HAHAHA. And I turned off my phone to sleep every night to save battery………????? Holy cow who does that anymore.

Okay digressing as usual I always have so much shit in my head and of course lots of shit in my bag to be worked on as well. Okay not shit that’s totally gold, this gold is gonna help me get like straight As in A Levels man!!! I mean, who doesn’t want that? Girls can dream 😛

However I think I really need to wake up soon because I’m not gonna do well in Math with my professional reading skills anyway- what’s the point of doing 100 S&S questions (and like 10 questions with asterisks) when I’m going to misread 100m as 100cm wth. So the question went like this “Carpenter A cut 2 100-metre planks in progressive order with a difference of 5cm from the previous plank… The first plank was 30cm… What’s the length of the longest plank?” bla bla bla something like that.

So the genius me read it as 100cm. Or more like, I didn’t read it as 100m. So I went 30 + 35 + 40 + 45 + 50 = 200cm!

Oh I even wrote an explanation on why the 3rd piece is not attainable “The 3rd piece cannot be cut from the plank as each plank is only 100cm and it falls short of the length needed. Thus, only 4 pieces can be cut.” And during the test I was like, LOL WHY 4 MARKS SO EASY TO EARN THANKS MATH DEPARTMENT.

wtf ng hui ping??? you think you still in P3? wait I think P3 students do more tough questions than what I interpreted.

SO WELL DONE FOR THE WHOLE FRIDAY I was feeling so dumb and stupid and LIKE WHAT REALLY WHAT AM I DOING IN JC??? I’m pretty sure we didn’t pay $100+ to buy the GC to do calculations like “30+35+40+45+50″… my gosh. Maybe I’m burning out too quickly- am I studying too much such that I’m becoming stupid???

去死把 don’t study fail study also fail I am really a loser at this JC game.

But I think at the end of the day, I’m still gonna study cause I’m a slave of this education system. So time to get back to that ultra thick stack of notes omg buying a life does anyone have a life to spare??????

CNY HURRY UP YOU’RE SLOWER THAN SNAILS AND TURTLES OMG

Puppy love

In response to the previous post, I actually did really really well for HCL O Levels 🙂 I accomplished something on my Bucket List after a long time! Okay A2 might not be that spectacular to some but it’s coming from someone who sucked so much at Chinese in primary school, who didn’t even know 叶子(纷纷)落下来, who didn’t even know simple 成语 like 土生土长 and 刻骨铭心 until recently. I mean the very fact that I wasn’t offered HCL in primary school says a lot…? I had to move to the 2nd class for my Chinese lessons okay HAHA.

I mugged really hard for the HCL exam this time (crashed Y4 lectures ALONE/did 作文s everyday/memorised paragraphs daily) so it’s really the sense of achievement that’s blowing my head over. I’m sorry if it came across as boastful/insensitive if anyone hasn’t done well but I guess that’s the prick of social media- in sharing your bouts of excitement you could incidentally offend many others in the process. I guess I’ll pay the price for that someday.

I was wondering about puppy love earlier in the day. I don’t know how to define puppy love, perhaps those little crushes that you have at a young age. I guess I’m included yet excluded from it because 18 is very much a limbo age, you’re legal to do so much nonsense but yet you are still too young to date yes RV? I was just thinking about what some teachers have told us and our seniors’ experiences… I don’t think I’d concur entirely with their views on puppy love because I honestly think that what we feel at those ages are actually genuine.

They may say that we are not emotionally ready, our partners are much less financially ready, but of course that’s in the context if you’re planning for your future. But what if you’re not? I’m pretty sure most of us live in the moment. We don’t date someone just because he/she is “marriage-material”. Seriously, when you’re 13, I don’t think you foresee that the 150cm boy beside you will be your husband…. right?

When you were young, all you cared about was your happiness. You’d eagerly wait at the other end for the text message to arrive, you’d forgo your homework just to sneak out to meet someone you love, you’d sacrifice your free time just to talk to someone you miss a lot. You’d lie to your parents. You’d spend lessons daydreaming about the memories you’ve shared and new memories that you wish to create. You’d think of all the possible things that you can do together.

And I’m pretty sure that makes a person happy. You go to sleep with a warm, fuzzy feeling in your heart. Those nights that allow you to sleep with a smile. It’s wrong to entirely base your happiness on someone else, but that someone can make you really happy. So why not? That someone can bring a smile on your face especially on days that you aren’t feeling great. I’m pretty sure most of us would like a person like that in our lives.

Let’s not talk about the ending of puppy love relationships HAHA the more I read Delirium the more I’m inclined to think that love is a disease. It makes sense! Love can make people depressed, mentally unsound, crying like you’ve got all the water in your system to lose…. ok doesn’t it make sense that it’s a disease now?

As you grow up, you look for different things in the partner. You start to wonder if they can provide you with a good future. You start to worry whether financial problems will surface if you actually get married. You start to wonder if this person is your soulmate. You start to wonder whether you can actually spend an entire lifetime with this person. You start to worry about the acceptance of each other’s family members. They say when you get married, you don’t just get married to a person, but also his/her family. That’s so true. What if you don’t like his mother? Can you spend another 50 years calling her your mother-in-law?

It’s all really baffling when you get older and there are so many more life decisions to make. Just love isn’t alone, you have to consider so many other important factors. You may say love overrides all factors, but what if you have to do something extreme like… migrating to his country? Will you be willing to put down everything you have just to be with the person you love?

So screw it, I don’t want to grow up. I’d rather be in this puppy love nonsense forever, even though these relationships aren’t very encouraged by adults who are the supposed love experts of our lives.

2nd time collecting HCL

Uh oh the year passed by really fast HAHA. I still remember I wasn’t THAT nervous for the results last year, in fact I was quite prepared to do damn badly cause I know I did damn badly for 综合填空 (6/20 sounds good yes?)

I honestly think I’ll be really emotionally burdened by my results this time- because it’s really my final chance. Last year I could still seek comfort in the fact that “I still have one more chance at the end of the year”, but NO NOT ANYMORE NGHP. I can’t retake anymore because 1. I’ve gleefully thrown away all my Chinese materials, 2. NO ONE TAKES HCL TOGETHER WITH A LEVELS, 3. The syllabus has changed, no one writes 公函 anymore now it’s some hipster 电子邮件 okay.

Let’s say I don’t do better than the previous time (i.e. >B4), it means I’ve wasted my $50 and my first A Level grade on paper will be a C… :'((( Honestly that is really upsetting. Fingers crossed, I’ll hope for the best tomorrow! Results will be out at 2pm and my dismissal is at 12pm tomorrow, it’s gonna be the longest two hours ever woahhh I’m gonna spend every minute counting down 60 seconds LOL.

These two weekends have been really productive because I did no shit except holiday homework, and guess what I’m finally done with my Math Revision Package!!! Took me about 6 full days in total HAHAHA I’m so proud of myself. Looks like everything can be done really fast if you’re in a mad rush :’) Not ready for Math test but ready for JC2 because holiday homework is finally completed HAHAHA definitely took me a while hehehe.

Totally overdue photos: (haven’t found the time to transfer photos man HAHAHA)

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Serve Cambodia Team 2013 at Sentosa HAHA! It was a beach day at Sentosa (4 hours running playing frisbee running in the water / LOSING LOTS OF CALORIES) followed by dinner, and New Year Countdown at Marina Bay hehe! The fireworks display was stunning no doubt, however I’m pretty sure it lasted longer last year HAHA. And we counted down by ourselves by following the iPhone clock hehehe. At the count of 1 the fireworks shot up :’) AT LEAST WE HAVE A COUNTDOWN. At every countdown party what intrigues me most is everyone counting down “10, 9, 8, …” and so on together because it’s really COUNTING DOWN TO THE END OF THE SHITTY YEAR (for me at least) 🙂

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Celebrating Matthias’s 1st birthday hehe 🙂 Jan 1 baby! Little children these days are so lucky, but I guess I was a lucky baby too HAHA I was told that there was a birthday celebration for me every year because I am born on Christmas and well, that calls for a celebration. Okay, thank you parents for the memories that I can’t seem to remember HAHAHA.

I am losing the spirit in blogging because there hasn’t been much spirit in my life lately sob. I feel sad to return home to an empty house nowadays, used to be really noisy with my siblings and parents at home chit chatting endlessly. Now I’m faced with an empty dining table all to myself. But I finally have a conducive mugging environment at home.

I miss the times when I went out with my siblings. I hope we would still get together frequently after all of us get married (hopefully we do!).

Adaptation

I have officially survived 7 schooldays HAHA. To be honest everyday ain’t that bad, mostly because I love all my subject teachers hehe 🙂 if you actually manage to catch up with lessons, JC life ain’t that bad afterall. In fact, it’s definitely a lot more interesting than secondary school life.

But I am still expressing dissent over the fact that we aren’t allowed to leave class during curriculum time. Okay, I understand that it’s to prevent truancy and nonsense but BUT BUT we have 2.5 hour breaks 😦 And there are days whereby we are dismissed at like what? 12pm? But we can only leave the school at 1.30pm….. wonderful indeed.

I’m sounding like some rebellious student who’s trying to challenge the school policies… YES I AM. Sigh, tough luck. I shall just treat it as a 3-hour studying break every week. I have at least 10 hours of break spread across the 5 days I believe, but I have terribly late dismissal timings 😦

My family’s lifestyle has changed rather dramatically over the past month, my parents are back to work again. (They retired in 2011) My sister’s back to school, and my brother’s his own boss. The house is really quiet now. And I don’t get weekday dinners with my family anymore hahaha 😥 Will definitely miss the times very very much. But at least this can ensure that both my parents are happy and healthy, since they are finally back to doing what they enjoy and what they are good at.

In the future, I hope I’ll be able to derive joy from a mundane lifestyle too.

BYE I SLACKED FOR 7 HOURS HUIPING YOU ONLY HAVE ABOUT 300 MORE DAYS TO A LEVELS

ZZZZZZZ

I literally fell asleep on my table, was reading Halogen Derivatives about solubility and interactions and more nonsense and the next moment I knew my leg was numb from my seating position. Too tired from the entire day I guess- even had a 2.4km run today morning.

And then walao.

I’m so irritated now brrrr but I shall not write about it so that I will forget it 10 years down the road.

4TH DAY OF JC2 AND I’M SO DAMN EXHAUSTED ZZZ how am I gonna survive the year??? DO IT NG IT’S JUST ABT 300+ MORE DAYS YOU’RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME 😥