Probably one of the first 谚语 (?) I learnt, because it was given to me as an encouragement in Primary 6 for PSLE HAHA. I always felt really special (because) of my parents’ lacking educational backgrounds, that I am already pretty outstanding to make it this far yes??? Please say yes. I mean, everyone’s messages had things like “Mommy and daddy love you” “just do your best!” and long encouraging messages of their expression of love to their children and spurring them on indirectly through that. Maybe that works. In contrast, my parents can’t even converse in English, let’s just recall how my brother teased my mom by saying “if you can spell zebra, I’ll transfer all the money in my bank account to you”. He said that in Chinese, of course.
So… Back to the topic. Among the lengthy English messages spread all over the mobile whiteboard, I had a 谚语 written like a Chinese painting. And that made me feel really special. Back then I didn’t think too deeply into the meaning of this, but now that I’m becoming more tiong-infused and appreciative of the Chinese culture, I realised this phrase really summarises their ideals and desires for me (then).
Just as long as I do my best it’ll be fine, the rest is up to God. Summarised in eight neat Chinese words.
And that’s what I’m telling myself for Prelims tomorrow. Freaking 1.50am and I can’t get myself to sleep because my heart is beating so hard and I can hear it. This is ridiculous, how am I going to overcome this anxiety the night before As?