It hits me,
Over and over and over again,
And I have no idea how I can deal with this.
Unbeknownst to most, being pressured by so many parties… This really sucks.
Perhaps I’ll get over it in a day, or a month or two, or even a year. But nothing can help what I’m feeling now.
Inadequacy, inferiority, it has hit me once, twice, it’ll keep hitting and hitting me. For the past 20 years of my life, for the rest of my life.